[Buddha-l] Confused

[Erik Hoogcarspel]

Luke,
you draw a smokescreen with all kinds of half understood words, concepts 
and half read books.
Zygmunt Bauman is a sociologist who analyzes the present state of our 
society, which he calls Liquid Modernity and which others have called 
hypermodernity. The specific thing about this is that nothing is stable 
and sure and everybody has to invent him/herself. He is close to 
Baudrilaard, but less exuberant.
Time is according to Husserl a movement of consciousness that remembers 
and anticipates continuously. So that's why we can evaluate and 
recognize a song without having heard all, even while hearing only one 
tone at the time. In death there is no awareness, how can we anticipate 
death? Well we can anticipate the end of the song while singing. The end 
is an apotheosis, it gives meaning and beauty to the whole song. The 
same with our life, that is the song we are all singing continuously. 
Death is the apotheosis, it's not a phenomenon, but it is part of our 
life as the supreme anticipation. That is why Heidegger said that being 
aware of your own death as a conscious anticipation takes you away from 
the inauthentic life of everyday gossip into an awareness of being. The 
media try to prevent this by turning death into a media event.
A confusing element is that I anticipate death not as the end of 
consciousness, but as the end of me. It could be that after losing a 
beloved one, I feel I'm not me anymore. The song of my life has ended, 
the stream of anticipation and memories has ended. I even can have an 
accident or an illness and lose my memory. At that time people see that 
I am alive, but I will be gone. I will not be aware of being gone, 
because this new me is just getting itself through the day as before. A 
person can die without knowing it.

erik